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[Abi79]

Originally posted by Playbahnosh@Feb 11 2006, 08:40 AM
Well guys, concerning the matter at hand, I don't know but I don't think I tell you what happened tonight. You will certainly go "this guy is plain stupid" or something. And you certainly don't want to know the 18+ stuff :P

:w00t: What happened, what happened? :w00t:

[Iron_Scarecrow]

Isn't it obvious Abi?

[Abi79]

:P :angel:

[Playbahnosh]

Originally posted by Abi79@Feb 11 2006, 08:15 AM
:P :angel:

exactly...

[Fawfulhasfury]

Dumkoff, you're just plain stupid. :bleh: LOL But if your problems are over, though its doubtful they'll be over forever, then maybe someone should close this topic now?

[Playbahnosh]

Why should anybody close this topic? It can remain here and I think I'm going to post in time to time... maybe with my reasoning back again

[Playbahnosh]

OH. MY. GOD.

This thread still exists? Never would've dreamt of it. heh.

Alright, since I promised I would reply, I will. Two full years have passed since this thread and I think I learned my lesson. For the record, after my last post here, it went like a flickering lightbulb, on and off. It was all rosy in one moment, then she disappeared for weeks, then all awesome again. I haven't really tried to make sense of it all back then, just enjoyed the ride, the whacky rollercoaster. When the semester ended in late June, she moved out of the dorm and left for home. Later I heard that she broke up with Peter, for good. I went to work in a hotel as a waiter, and an errand boy, and that was the worst job in my entire life. But what it bittersweet, was her. I workes my ass off like a dog each day working 13 hours a day straight without breaks. Horrible. But every night when I crashed into my bed, she called me, and we talked for long times. She asked about my day, tried to cheer me up and stuff. She even sent me SMSs during the day how she can't wait it to be night again, she misses my voice n stuff . She was happy, she said we are toghether now, no Peter, no nothing, and she will be with me. You know, despite the shitty job, I felt...I felt good. Fist in my life I felt awesome to be alive. I felt alive. Then one night she said she can't take it anymore, and will come and see me, she misses me so much, she misses my voice and my touch.
That's where I blew the whole thing into kingdom come. That's where I said the thing I regret most in my entire life. I'm not a man of regret, in fact I never regret anything, I think good things are good and bad things are things to learn from, and I never did regret anything up until that point, and from that point onwards either. But that was the most utterly stupidestest thing I could, which ruined the only good thing in my life for all ethernity. Well, I shared a horrible attic room with some other staff guys, and simply did not have any privacy there. She asked jokingly on the phone that how it will work out, we get the room for an hour or two? Then I said, what, you only want sex from me? We should go walking on the beach, or I could show you around the place, it's quite beautiful at night...but there was silence, and I immediatly knew something was wrong. A minute of silence. Then she switched from the giggly, nice tone to angry and said...You know what? You are right! I only wanted sex from you. Thats what is was all about, nothing else. I don't see how this could ever work with us. I was a fool all along. I tried to intervene saying it's not true, that was a joke and all that, but she said that I finally made her realise, and this is wrong and she never should've started this with me and stuff, and she hung up. She never answered the phone after that. I called her at least a thousand times in row, day after day, but nothing. I tried for a couple of days after, and eventually I gave up. I havent heard about her for months to come. When I got back to the university in September, I met her in the dorm, when I was there to meet one of my friends, and she looked happy to see me. She apologised for not answering the phone, but she didn't know what to say to me after she dumped me so hard, she was embarasses and all she said. Well, I made one last vague attempt to get something going with her, but she gently pushed me away, and I got the message. And we were only friends after that, if you can call rarely meeting or talking on MSN a few lines per month. She got together and broke up with Peter two times, then she left him for good after that. Somehow we got together again for a beauiful night at my place, but it ended in a long talk about how we shouln't start this again and her leaving again. Last year she had problem with her notebook, and I referred her to one of my friend who had a PC service in the city, I introduced them to each other, and went on my way. A week later I heard that they are together. *I* introduced her to him. F***! I was depressed. I was furious. I wanted to know how is that guy so much better than me? How is...well, long story short, I left them alone.
As things stand today, they are still together, for over a year now, and all looks rosy. Me and Gabi don't talk much, once is month tops. I don't really have much to say to her after all this. I don't resent her or hold a grudge, I'm happy that she is happy, tho I have that little sting that she is happy with someone else, and not me. I guess that won't go away, but I don't care about it much now. I went forward with my life, and I haven't found anyone else, nor want to. Girls are just not worth it, they are more pain than do good, sad but true. And I never going to find anyone quite like her, so why bother. I have my studies, my friends and my life to care about, I don't have nor want to have time to chase the pink cloud any further. Love is lie. Period. And I don't want to be part of it any more. If I die alone, well I asked for it I guess, that's what I deserve for whatever reason. meh.

So, sorry about resurrecting old topic, just wanted post this. BTW, I'm still alive in case any of you were wondering, and I'm into my studies most of the time, so I don't really have time to post, but I'll try to do it more often from no on
Don't worry, Playbahnosh won't leave you guys, that I promise :amused:

[Lulu_Jane]

Heeeey, we aren't all that bad, just like all men aren't cave-dwelling thugs

Welcome back Mr. Playbanosh

[Mighty Midget]

Welcome back, Playbahnosh I'm really sorry to hear about all that, I really am, but you know what? It took me ages and ages to realize it, that there are more than untrustworthy people out there. After more than 15 years of having no hopes of meeting anyone I could trust enough or feel good having around, I suddenly did, and I didn't even see it coming before I knew I had indeed met someone. Well, if anything it goes to prove that not packing our bags before scheduled means there will be opportunities later. We might not know it the minute before, but suddenly and quite unexpected something happens that changes things for the better.

Ok, enough of this so once again, welcome back!

[Nick]

By the Nine Divines...

Heh, no offence, but I can't believe it. Such... interesting story. I thought such stories are happening only in books. Well, I'm glad it's all right now for you.