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Jesus Christ! Bless GOD, Jesus Christ, Mary, and The Holy Spirit# Then bless my real mom Huong Thi Vu. Honours to my real mom Huong Thi Vu and my real dad Nguyen Binh Thuy. Congratulations to my real two sisters Nguyen Khoa Thuyen and Nguyen Khoa Thi. Well today we do a double just because it has been a while. I think it is more than a week however the life is just becoming dull. So I figure a double to pick everyone up. So here goes:

Contrary to popular beliefs I am not perfect! Just yesterday I was watching the naughty channel where naked bodies are# hehe I probably will watch it forever because I am NOT a robot. I need physical contact that is sensual. The hard part for me is waiting until I have a wife. I don't know what the future will hold since I rarely get out. The people who are compatible in my life are few. I do meet enough people at the hair salon where I can find a Vietnamese wife. Unfortunately the time is not now. I need to get to know the person first because jumping into bed early leads to sexually transmitted diseases!!!!! I've been there where I have jumped before I looked and regret every moment of it. I wish I would have waited because it was a meaningless moment. I got nothing special out of it and it left me desolate for years. I lost everything and had to start all over.

Everytime I do something stupid I have to start all over and it is a pain!!! However I have good family who support me and are waiting for me to grow up. I am 43 years old and yet I continue to behave like I am going to be cared for forever# Many people are lucky. They *know* they are cared for the rest of their lives. I am not that fortunate. I live life every single day not knowing whether it will end or if I will have enough to feed myself. Just this Sunday I went out and saw a homeless person. He was given a single meal and he just left it there on the totum pole and went back to work collecting and trying to get off the streets.

I remember being homeless and this guy has to work. I don't remember having that bad. I am grateful to God of Heaven my life is better. I don't know how prostitutes do it! I think to myself having a wet dream is bad however I don't know how they could just waste their lives away with something so meaningless. I thank God of Heaven my life is bless forever.