[Hunter Hunted]

Hello, members of the forums.

I have a form of autism in real life, which makes gaining any social connections outside of professional relationships rather tough. For a long time, I have also suffered from anxiety and I find shopping in supermarkets by myself a challenge, due to being agoraphobic, so I get my main shopping delivered. You could say that I relied on my support staff to assist me and keep me entertained. Unfortunately, I quit my support last year because that agency screwed me over and I have had my life ruined by all of this crap they put me through.

There was a time a woman called Laura had been using me for my money and lying to me. It was a painful time in my life, especially since I had spent several years searching for her after I met her in 2005 and I did not go out with her for very long. In my mind, I kind of still love her, but I am not sure why I still consider her as someone special, since yes - I was being abused.

A few years ago, I started working with a Spanish support worker named Sara who was really nice when we first had shifts together. She also became my key worker and I was proud to have met her. Back then, she was such a sweet person - I can assure you of that. Unfortunately, I developed feelings for both her and another woman called Joanna. Then I revealed this to other workers, including a guy called Robert who I often played pool and snooker with. The seniors took Joanna off my team of helpers because I felt they lied to me regarding my rota and then she reported me for posting about her on Facebook.

This tattletale stuff just created an awkward situation as I first lost this Joanna, then Sara. Once Sara revealed she knew I liked her once I slipped up, she changed and started to bully me for a while, right up until the seniors removed her as my key worker. While we were apart for many weeks, I got suspicious and I just knew she had been removed as my key worker before the people she works for officially announced it. Then when she saw me around, she looked uncomfortable or she tried to pick on me again. There was also a time I waited for her going home just to try to talk to her nicely, but she freaked out and got in a taxi. The company also disabled her work e-mail address and she stopped doing sleepovers at the accommodation I was in before.

After a while, I felt so sad that neither woman was going to support me again, that I went nuts and sent them disgusting messages on Facebook. This caused me to be remanded in prison before a court hearing. Shortly after I got out of jail, I was arrested twice more just for saying sorry to them on Facebook, so the judge sent me back to jail for 17 days, in September.

Since then, I have been arrested in January for contacting them again since they obviously do not care about me and I have to be back in court this week. But I really miss them. And I regret the things I said to them before, but their boss Cathy will not bring them back. Apart from this, I still cannot go back to my flat because the staff work in flat 1 next door to where I stayed until July of last year. The court bailed me to live with my family, so it is annoying me now that I am being denied access to my flat.