Skipping personal part of topic - I agree that movies, games, music, whatever today is mostly crap. I also think that it was always like that and always will be like that. No point in glorifying or romanticizing something.
My opinions on art:
There were lot of crappy games in last century, crappy music, even that old famous Hollywood movies from black&white era were mostly nothing but simple happy ending bedtime stories with good looking actors that are interesting when you first meet them and dull you totally if you stick with them. I believe that it was same centuries ago, well no games or movies, but books, poems, paintings, music etc. The only difference is that only small portion of old staff is preserved in memories (or school books). There are surely some good things that are forgotten and overlooked, some not so good got preserved, but most of crap is ignored and quality things are still mentioned. Beatles were such a huge at the time, I doubt most of kids nowadays know their songs, listening to Beyonce and Eminem. Future brings same, new music, new movies, and some remnants from the past. You really think that future kids will want to play entire Call of Duty series with modern games of their time? Only some of them will play something old and will choose something that is still mentioned, and that will unlikely be "several first parts of some great series".
That is not totally bad thing, as people want something, and you can't simply give them few good books that passed the test of worthiness. They need lot of entertainment. That inevitably leads to bad part, with people entertaining themselves instead of developing themselves.
Games:
After this philosophy,
a practical part that I wanted to say in the first place.
It is very likely that you find everything meaningless because you have more important problems. You probably can't eternally enjoy games when something else is troubling you. I see your activity on forums and escort girls as good thing - you are doing something. It takes a while before you get to the right track, it is same for everyone, only the required time is different, but you can't complain about the cards you got, you just need to play the hand. There are good games getting published (well, being released in some way), but it is harder to find them. It will get easier when you know how to look for them.
If you want to entertain yourself with game, look for what you need. If you are occupied with some other problem, no game will be good enough. But if you wanna play the games, there are options. After all, there is internet today which allows you to, for instance, visit abandonia and download old games you like. There is no way you already play all the games you will like, and new ones are coming out constantly. Not in big numbers, but are coming out. Check kickstarter or similar places from time to time, check non-PC sites for some old goodies, read reviews and comments about new movies and games.
For example, I was amazed with
Braid and
Portal. Those are not only newer games that I liked, but I point them out for a reason. Braid is old 2D style logical-platformer, but new possibilities with new computers and programming languages were used to develop a new concept of playing, new gamplay that makes even the old 2D game popular and modern. Portal is game with modern 3D graphics and everything, but those new modern engines made possible to create a new kind of gameplay that wasn't possible before. I like Half-Life, it is among best FPS with many interesting things despite it is still FPS, but it is still FPS. Portal on the other hand showed that modern staff doesn't necessarily need to fall into mainstream, but risk with something new. I was literary
happy, not glad that good game is out, but happy because something new and beautiful can still be made, and probably will be made in future.
There will still be good games coming out. Simply because there are still people that care to make them. Most of them won't succeed, but some surely will.
My suggestions to you - if you like survival horror, then I hope you heard of
Amnesia - Dark Descent. Recently, I discovered
Project Zomboid. It is still buggy, but hey, you don't get many games like that anyway.
Personal part:
Speaking of reviews, I actually got hooked on reviewing games at one point, mostly because I felt useful. That is always helpful, even though loneliness was my major problem back then. It is definitely helpful to feel better about yourself. Anyway, somebody said that you should find a "higher purpose". Reviewing was mine - media will always be swamped with modern stuff, I felt I should at least leave a pointer to something good or bad, for someone with similar interests.
The review I would point out is for the game
Terry's Big Adventure on lemon64. I usually didn't like platformer games very much, but there are always exceptions. I'm not mentioning that review because of its quality (don't know is it creative or what) but because it is largely overlooked game I personally find even better than Mario Bros. So, when someone with C64 nostalgia sees it, he may try something he didn't play before on this old computer and actually have some fun. I even got in touch with creator of the game who was happy to find out that someone actually enjoyed the game.
I'm not saying you should become reviewer, it was just mine cup of tea. After all, I also largely dislike modern path of games development, so I decided to do something about it, a little part as it can be, with reviewing old games on a new site. Reviewing both good and bad games (IMO off course), but it is better than doing nothing about it. Naturally, we are not all supposed to review old games, but find there is surely something that moves you. In a way it is creating/finding new hobby that is helpful to you.
Oh, and do smack yourself in your face, very hard, and as many times as possible. It worked for me. I wasn't that closed, but had some issues. The only thing to solve them, no matter how stupid this sound, is to solve them and not think about them, although you always spend time thinking about it. Face them without planning or trying to face it successfully. Because you can't be successful before you know what to do, it doesn't make sense. You have problem with communicating face to face, then do it. Don't hope or worry that will it turn out OK, because it won't. Ask yourself what are the consequences that you have to bare with when it turns out bad. I actually think that you will get to realization that it is already bad because you already have a problem that is lasting, so no consequences are worse than that, since they are temporary. And then do it again. Make a fool of yourself or weirdo or whatever... after you do it 100 times it will start bothering you less and less, which results in you being more relaxed. And I doubt you will need 100 times, probably much much less
Could be I'm wrong, it worked for my issues. One silly example is that I from time to time stand near the edge, because I fear of heights. I'm not scared of planes, but scared of being near the edge at some high place, like window on 20th floor. So I do it. It bothers me, I stop after few minutes, but I feel better about myself. This is just a stupid example, since it is not really a problem, but I tried something similar with other things. I faced/opposed some people and was scared of outcome, but naturally it didn't result in 3rd world war but only in uncomfortable situation. After few times, I was less scared and more focused on what I'm trying to do. Naturally, don't overdo it, like having a fight, grabbing girl's bottom or something like that - I don't think you will create small disaster trying to face your fears, but just needed to say it.
Perhaps I didn't grasped your situation well, perhaps I'm all wrong here, but it is also possible it might help. I can't give you solution, you need to find it yourself, I can only say what worked for me and hopefully you will manage to extract something and turn it into something useful. If not, then just move over these suggestions.