Maybe you should try doing some music. Might be more successful at it, maybe an undiscovered talent, who knows
Not sure, what do you expect as a reply to your post? Ideas what to do for you? For starters, moving to the capital or another country altogether might help your interests & goals. Or seriously, try out some completely different areas of interests, you can never know where you'll find success. Heck, maybe you're even an undiscovered Bruce Lee Nr. 2. No trying, not knowing.